notebook
Monday, September 01, 2008 ; 9:34 PM
it's high time i throw away my lil notebook.
my lil jotterbook..
my doodle companion..
this little book witnessed my anger,frustration,my love,my time doodling..
the book that help me sort out my time..
im so attached to this book that throwing it seems too hard for me to do!
so here goes me unrevealing snippets ink-written words..!
random time table..
wed 16/07/08
1010-1100 hs 3041 k.403 bernard
1110-1200 hs3041 k.403 bernard
1205-1255
1300-1350 hs 3034 LTJ-2 Pat C.
1400-1450 hs3034 LTJ-2 Pat C.
4-5pm theory paper!!
1 water
3 salt
2 large sheet of polyethylene
8 cigarette lighter
9 newspaper
compass
air map
torch
4 a selection of spare clothing
6 choc
first aid
loaded pistol
5 knife
7 small mirror
rmb this exercise in clemaus tutorial?where our group consist of mostly the chatterbugs made so much din to debate which was the most important to survive in the airplane crash?..haha!!
okay here goes my lil doodling stuffs!
Where(direction) you think this (both you & me) is heading to now?
where you want to head it to?
You got me tangled up!!!
Got me thinking, got me pondering
i've never thought of it as of yet
You got me dumbfounded again
why you jkasjdk(i can't read this word) me??
Why you're asking me?
What do you want it to be?
I enjoy your company and thats all that matter to me!
i never knew
i never anticipate
I never wanna know what the future has its take
expect the unexpected
& its really unexpected
tell me why i'm afraid??
my thoughts are jumbled
putting me in this state
im just afraid...
just afraid...
Tell me...
A story..
how did it even started w/o me knowing it..
*slap me* Wake me up..
Is this really e reality?
I'm just afraid...afraid to proceed..
I don't know my next move..i never knew my moves...
It's impromptu..
i don't plan,I don't wanna plan
the bon-voyage note for ASD haha this is the actual one but in my book got alot of drafts!
It wasn't that long we got to know you.
The first time we saw you,back
then in *** wd**, being one of e jovial, cheerful, and very helpful SN.
Nevertheless tt moment of student-staff r'ship
blossomed into friendship bounded by fate
that got us this close.
You'd be away fro awhile as part of you career..We wish you e
best of luck and we believe tt you know what to do
for him
Finally pondering over the maths
problem sums tt you came up with
Answers really don't pop in my mind
What's the formula tt i need to use?
WHich method?
scalars or vectors?
Im good in neither..
6days or less for me to solve?
Do I really have to get it solve
or will the ans just be unknown
in the end?
another one
Boy!You got me confused..
You wanna know where you stand..
You wanna know where's the direction..
To tell you e truth..I ain't sure myself
The direction tt you and me are
heading to seems e same..
Both in the land of fantasy world
indulging in an imaginary r'ship
where both finds comfort in..
I'm really really not sure
where to head to next.
I'm afraid to show make the move
For the imaginaryh r'ship might just.
disappear into thin air..
But it seems that we are
bound tgt by this thing tt...i odn't know..
Haiz..!YOu got me confused boy!I never had this feeling..
I'm losing my words...
What got you questioning?
Why didnt I think about it?
It wasn't anticipated..
I was really dumbfounded
Again..
The last time you got me dumbfounded was when you
sent me home..
Wanting to extend e time
to talk..
But i couldn't..Cuz it was midnight..
I clearly rmb what you did after tt..
Doing reflections..by the lil reservoir..
I swore..i've no idea what was going on
But you swoon me and I found you
sweet to send me home when it was
totally out of the way..
The first guy to do tt(afta long)..It sure carved a lasting impression
But nevertheless..I thot it was just a casual act from you..tho i dohave my suspicions.
WHen you asked me out,
Before you were sent to serve the country
It was just you and me..
ANd i didn't dress up properly..
Just you adn me
by the enticing blue sea.
we talked and talked..
had fun,laughter and jokes..
YOur phone kept ringing..
but somehow,sitting beside you felt so comfortable..It was just YOU..
Something i've not felt for long time since..
It was a strage feeling..
strange feeling...
But it didnt get me questioning
I cried the next day when you left..
i ain't sure why?
But i know..i was missing you...
and somehow the thot of someone
I'm confrotable with leaving me
got me broken down
the fear of you leaving me got into me..
But why?When we barely knew each other?
It was just strange to come to thin about it...
WHen we are strangers..i felt
comfortable talking to you,listening to you & i love your company..
It's funny that i can't explain it..
perhaps i know it..
Right here..deep in my heart..
But i can't seem to find the words to put it down..
i don't know..
what's/where do i want to head to?
Well..I just want to be in your hands..
so tt you cant think of where to put me..
I like what we are now..
Undeniably,its an imaginary rship..
gosh tt was long!!haha didnt beleive i could write tt much..okay here's a last one before i post it..
i have another one but its sooo not pleasant so i'd post it the next one!!
I miss you..
I'm thinking of you..
I want to sit beside you
*i like you*
I miss your voice
I miss your laughter
i miss your braces
can i (fill in a word) you?
can we enjoy what we are a lil longer?
Can we stay stagnant?
Im afraid to change the situation (his nick)
Im waiting to see you soon..
2 weeks not gonna meet..
Staring blankly ahead;
Just making my way through the crowd