DAMN!it took me so long to log in to this irritating blog..
cuz needed change to the new version and wateva the shitty shit it was..
niwaes..I MISS BLOGGIN!!
hehe..okie fine shuddup..
wanted change my blog song..but looks like i aint got tym to chAnge cuz its past one hour and i juz
got logged in..


and yes!!!I MISS NAS AND SHEIL..n NoT FORGETTING KIA!!
haha like wadtha hell..
rmb me telling khair dat i will get bored of him soon..
cuz we are in the same ward,same room,and same SHIFT!!Grr..
but yar i still do miss him cuz we cant go breaks together unless dat
staff nurse lina is in charge of us..
heys!!sheil n nas!!how are u guys!!missing u guys loads kiez..
sheil..u muz be happy dat "he" is juz workin near u eyy..evryday get to see him..
hehe coolsome..
n nas..jgn nak pasrah pasrah kiez..enjoy ur attachie..hehe
cant wait to catch up wit u guys..
n sheil thx fer coming down on sat!!
nas take care of ur health yar!!
luv u ppl larr!!


Hmm..wat shall i sae??okie cool..
lets tok abt attachie alrite??luving my attachie now as usual..
cuz fer once i've overcomed my fear of talking to patients..
khair u shud try dat too!
n den we got Mrs MAY CHIA AGAIN!!She's VERY NICE lor..
n khair got breakfast from her..
cuz ryt he didnt eat his breakfast at home..
hehe next tym morning shift need get him coco pops!hehe
(there's a story behind y it must be coco pops..tell u ppl the story in this entry the later part alritey..mean time 'cont reading)<br>

hehe coolsome..im luving my attachie cuz the nurses are nice,
patients are rather nice tho some are a lil fussy..but i can manage..
n yes its ferst tym getting male cubicle..n its fun!
a few of my fave patients are already discharged..so sad lar..
n ges wat..my cubicle always got ns guys lar..
i like the biceps of 24/11 lor..but now discharge already
so sad..no more looking fwd to taking bp of 24/11..
den my fave uncles also go home already..
but good fer them lar..


manage to do fleet enema,dressing n all..so fun!!
workin with khair is oso fun..
n yes ppl tot we were siblings..like wth??
i look much beta den khair cann??haha kiddin!
n yes..got a few incidents dat happen in the ward lor..
ferst was khair..i really tot my patient fell lor..
was so freaked out..dat according to khair..my face was pale..
ya like duh..was scared fer him..it really made my heart stop beating..
budden..khair is actually a hero..yap..
he save a life..not one but TWO LIVES!!
the other one happen because this patient was having cervical dunno wad..
an NS guy oso..n yar mly..a new admission..
he had dis collar tingy around his neck and we needed take parameters fer him..
i slipped the bp cuff under his arms and the patient said it was painful..
den yes..thank GOD!!Khair was der to tell me to take bp at the leg instead..
imagine wat wud happen to me if i juz took the bp at his arm..
gosh i lurve u lar khair!!!ur my hero too..
nope ur my kR-ion!!hehe


so yar..der are lots of stories i wanna share..attachie is quite fun..
i lurve morning shifts..instead of afternoon..
cuz afternoon there's nothing to do..
according to mimi its a mingling session with patient..hehe
dats cuz we are juz answering call bells and entertaining them..
haha..but fun larr talking ot the patients..they are so cute..
especially the old uncles..
Kr made me realise dat actually those speaking hokkien can speak mly..
dun blve?try it lar..cuz he tried at dis patient..n yar he can speak mly..
haha..so i ended up speaking mly to hokkien pt..
very fun lor..kr tot me lotsa tings which he learned in the previous wards lar..
like disposing of the drips,clinical chart etc etc...
but ges wat i tot him??i tot him how to make milo!!haha u muz thank me lor..
he duno how to make milo..dats cuz he very manje(pampered) with his mum..
hehe kies..enuff abt attachie.. now the coco pops story..


on the ferst day of attachie,khair brought me to meet his mum
during one of the breaks..(like duh..i was kinda scared)
met his mum..n kissed her hand as a respect fer the malays..
her mum was so hip and rock lar..she didnt made me feel awkward..
at least not in front of me..so she was talking and talkin..offering us fruits..
but i dint want any...n kr was telling her abt mrs may chia..
mrs may chia told us to have breakfast before coming fer morning shift
..den his mum was like(not the exact words)
"abe kau oboy macam mane??kau mane suke makan pagi pagi..
lau tak bu belikan coco pops ngan susu nak?bawak ge keje?"
i burst out laughing lar..hahaha..damn funny lor..the way the mum
say it..so pampered lar khair..
khair was so embarrassed dat he told his mum not to say sumore..
wakaka..his mum was nice..so no longer afraid to meet his mum..
n dats y sumtyms i'll juz tease him coco pops..


lalala..okie was kinda busy fer the week dat has juz passed..
busy with training fer dance..
rmb having last dance prac late at nyt
at funan it mall dance studio till 12midnyt on friday
straight after 1-9pm attachie..but fun lar..and having to go skul on the next day at 9am..
so din get enuff sleep
so most of the tym khair had to go home alone..
dun worry nxt wk i'm goin home with u 4 out of the 5 days okie...
tapi tak janji..hehe..
okie lar..having more rest and studying more hopefully..
hope my long entry will let u guys miss me lesser..
to all my nurses frens..take care of ur health yar..
esp nas,khair,sheil too even tho u not sick yet..,chu xiang..and whoeva dat have fall sick
take very good care yar..missing u guys!!
toodles..n keep taggin!

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okie..here i am..
posting my last entry before i get busy up fer the weekends
and following attachie..
btw im in ward 47 ppl!!SGH..hehe..
kk..


err..kr n sheil din come today cuz sheil is sick
n kr put his alarm at 11am..
juz cuz i told him skul starts at 11am..(blurrr boi!)
gosh kr..
its goin be at the end of the sem already larr..
n kr's blog so irritating..
but it takes energy to view his blog cuz(wait wats wit me and energy???haha)
goin in to view his blog is sucha hussle..
n den cannot even view the taggie board
n den read his blog sumtyms take ur energy to think further wat he's trying to sae..
haha..mystery person..but i like~
not much of a mystery to me..but at tyms do..
cuz i still have the slowness in me..hehe cant help it..


n sheil beta tc kae..
next week is already attachie..
take lotsa vit c..
tu lar baca buku banyak sangat kan..hehe
(translation:read books too much right..hehe)


Warning:this part of the entry doesnt sound like me but no fret its really me..hehe

oh wells HIPHOPHUNT is coming soon..
cant wait fer it..
yes..we,girls needa have dat fighting spirit..
dat competing spirit..
the spirit to win..
n dat lil tinge of slutty nasty bitch us to dance it out..
yea..im sure we can do it..
yea..touch every part of the body..
like the prac i had wit wei lin and pauline

the lil scenarios during practice with pauline and wei lin
while the rest of the dancers were doing their dance choreo fer open house


scenario 1..
"come lets walk like a model..sexy yea.."
3 of us walk..pretending to be like tyra banks..
haha but not really dat sexy yet..urgh..
its hard fer me..
but we tried walking tho..
neva satisfied


scenario 2..
"must be comfy touching ur body.."
pauline:we touch the hair ferst.."
me:okie okie..do sexy and differnt pose..
cat walk a lil n touched our hair...(not satisfied)
paulin:k touch the neck now
touch and touch..
practically touching and embracing our own body..
out of a sudden
wei lin:k touch ur BREAST
rabiah:wadtha hell??!!YIKES!!
n yea the practically touch n left their hands there lar..
lik wow!
haha n guess wat i did??
cross my hands on my chest..n chest mind u..
not breast..lalala..
im still a lil bit shy on dat area..
but den again
think rabiah..i have the assets..
urgh no choice(its neva been a choice) but hafta do it..


okie wadtha hell..we shall all be slutty,seducive,bitchy and SEXY..yea..
lurve u gals larr!!cant wait to dance on sunday..wee..
so this weekend kinda caught up..
Sat:danceworks briefing
Sun:dance prac with the girls..lurve it..

k back to the normal me..


hmm..
i thot u said u wud let it be..
i thot it was over ..
i thot u were okie on the day the conference ended??
i kinda sorta hate u..fer..
saying things u din mean..
hating u fer treating "him and her" dat way..
i juz dun undastand..
ur saying things but doin another..
ur contradicting..
u noe i have dat respect fer u wen u show me ur talent.
but wen it cum to personal..
i dun like it..
ur raking it up all over again..like wadtha hell??
oh wells..this is Power of lurve i ges anyway..in ur understanding..
hmm..



another part of me..<br>

..
i dunno y but i rake up the past..
i noe ive no ryt...bt i still did it..
i noe..it hurts n im sorry..
im hurt too..
i dunno y but i juz wanna stop asking abt the past..
i dun wanna noe..
cuz i noe it hurts alot..
but i wanna noe..why there was sucha secrecy..
but i dun wanna ask dats fer sure..
let it be a mystery i neva solve..
i juz wann it to ba the way it is now..
i wan u..but on the other side i dun wanna lose wat i have now..
so i ges juz let it be..
if u found someone new pls juz lemme go..
dun worry abt me..
i'l be fine..



Yet another part..of me..


i dunno y but i feel dat im losing u..
y din u tell me somethin was wrong wit u..
u were with me since the day dat i was born..'
seeing how the family grew..
sharing the close-knit rship we once had n now has strain..
rmb dat day..u said y are all our luv ones leaving us soon..
wat i can do now is add ur name in the list of ppl im praying for god to look after
i juz pray fer ur safety n ur health..
take care n luv u..


thoughts:y am i losing my luv ones??

to all my frens..happy attachie..

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lalala..half an hour..
long tym neva update my bloggie..
haha so freakin bored lar..
2hours break n freakin skul ends at 2pm after which ive to wait till
6.30pm fer dance prac..long hours of boredom..
tmr will be the last day of presentations..
and den free fer the next two days..
next week attachment..n therefore leaving my blog to hibernate AGAIN..


oh wells..
true when ppl sae life aint fair..
my dad's kinda weird..
he wanna buy computer fer ma lil sis..
plus internet..
dats not freakin fair lar..
like he shud have bot it earlier fer me lar..
POly n internet..
rather than me wasting time to go cyber..
wasting time = wasting money..
urgh..
but anyways mum says she soo not gonna plug in internet..
how i wish mum wud pity me n my skulwork..
like i need the easiest n fastest way to get my resources..
wateva lar eh..
n dad..wats all dis abt marriage n kicking up a big fuss abt it??
i juz duno why u suddenly get pissed and frustrated ant talk to marriage abt me..
like wth??
im still skuling and have no intention to get married or watsoeva..
im so pissed wit u cann??


im juz so vexed dis days..
i feel like letting go of everythin..
not wanting to be occupied with stupid thots..
irritating guys juz make me more vexed..
like hello..ur attached lar n still wan sibuk2..
n u juz got to noe me lar..
n btw wateva dat is happening to my ex n me is our problem..
dunno y da hell u wanna noe..its my personal life..
even if u dun respect me,at least respect my privacy..
at least ur fren is much beta..younger n wiser..
argh..im goin insane..
being single is much more fun..
tho deep inside i yearn fer sumone..
but yet dun wanna lose everything dat i own now..
urgh..
insanity kills me!!

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khair darlin..think dis entry's fer u again..
noe its not fair fer cuz im not fillin u up on my life
while u owaes do tell me on ur life..
in fact im owaes the first one..
im really sorry dearestestestest fren..
u noe i luv u..
n yes just like u,i oso dowan lose u..
but the fact dat im not telling u on my life is dat
i dun wish to disturb ur beautiful life now..
im happy when ur happy..
i noe i still have u..
i noe ur owaes der wen i need u even if its at midnyt..
n its proven..
not dat i dun wan confide in u..
budden i realise dat u nid to noe abt me too..
u've been there fer me rite from the start..
n u've done alot
so i've decided i'll tell u wat ive not been telling u soon yea..
n if u dunnoe..haha im the person who is hard to get ma feelings out...
u shud noe huh..hehe..lurve u darlin!!!
missing u lots!!
>

n to u..if u wanna be with me..u gotta undastand me..
i dun wish fer the past to repeat..
yes khair is above all of my frens..my feelings fer u have not reached there yet,,
so im not sure if i want to..
or if time allows me to have a rship..
im happy the way it is now..n if ur thinkin y muz i be close with khair..
i can juz tell u dat he's der fer me thru up and down..not u..
he was there fer me wen my heart shattered into pieces time and again..
tc

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Violence?
HAte it..
hate him..

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im so missing khair lar..
gosh dammit..nas was like counting number of tyms
i said and wrote dat i was missing khair..
haha god dammit khair purposely make me miss him lar..
irritating..
okie cool..
niwaes he fell sick lar..
but actually woke up late..
was actually deciding whether to msg him anot wen it was past 1020..
instincts told me he was still sleeping..
sumore wan take cab..
so he's having slight fever probably due to the throat infection?
see lar dowan listen to me ryt!
StuBboRn..summore can say ppl stubborn..
niwaes tc yea..
cant believe im jz bloggin cuz of khair..
hehe..muz take care alrite..
n poor ting..khair cant talk cuz its pain..
shall see if he still have late nyt phone calls to his ahem..
hehe..lurve ya darlin!!


niwaes gonna have late nyt today..
cuz of project..nid ideas to engage the class..again..
haha cann expect me to come with crazy ideas fer the group again..
and to do 'his' project..
den khair darlin gonna have meeting tmr after skul..
lyk so sad..cant go home with him..
tsk tsk..k lar..anything msg me..cya ppl..

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Wat a cat..
my hands are all scratched by the cat..
urgh..
princess no more..
keep scratching and biting me lar.,.
urgh..irritating..see the ugly scars on ma hand n its painful..
dad!!go get princess cut her fingernails!!
yayness..dancing tmr!!
pirouttes??urgh!
but coolness..izzy coming down..wee...so fun..
n yesh he is so freakin enthu..
cant wait fer tmr!!wee~
life is picking up..

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why is it sucky for me?
losing two ppl in a week?
one was a fren's lil cuzzie which i was close to..
played with him during every raya open house..
got da news the day after he passed away due to brain tumour..
in the early hours wen skul was starting..
an innocent life returning to god with not much sins..
it hurts cuz i din go to the raya open house last year..
i din get to see him..
if i did..at least,i wudnt feel dat bad..
i missed him..i regretted not to go the open house but
dats cuz i was having sumthin on
i'll juz sae a lil prayer for him to rest in peace..
condolences to the family..


next it was him..the person i was close to..
the person who i shared probs with..
it was hurting..
no,dis guy din pass away..
but i juz have to resign to fate n not be close to him..
if there need to be sumone hurt..let it be me..
i luv u fren..yes i do..it hurts me not to be dat close to u..
but i hafta understand u..
thx fer everythin u did..
n yes finally u replied my msges n dat was enuff..
to hear u comforting n making me undastand..
well we'll still be frens forever aite..


nevertheless,god was helping me..
losing two ppl in lives..
i got 2 ppl more in my life..
2ppl who got..i wudnt sae luv...
2ppl who had crush on me..
2ppl from the party..
but i noe im not intrested..u guys msg me at the wrong tym..
wen im down..but i juz layankan jek..
p/s:i dun like it if ppl like me fer beauty n not fer who i am..


niwaes that person who called me at nite but i din really tok to..
cuz i was crying..
thx so much..
im not writing ur name down...there's a reason..
but thx fer being there wen i nid u even if it was at midnite..
izzy,thx fer not calling too..u noe i wudnt be enthu if u called me..thx fer understanding..

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This song is specially meant for u.
Though some parts of the lyrics doesn't realie relate
But the meaning is there.
I wasn't sulking but i was realie hurt and disappointed.
I knew good thing will never last long.

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today woke up freakin early to msend lil sis
to my beloved secondary skul..
yay!
woke up at 6am..
mann it was tiring cuz i finally surrendered to my pillow at lyk
2am?
lil sis needs help fer the uniform and stuffs..
she has been really excited about going to my sec skul..
hehe..n studying there..
anyway it was juz 7am n i was still dressing up
my lil sis was so scared dat she wud be late..
n im like..
hello..i noe wad tym to get out of the house n u wunt be late..
(hehe i was the season on the bell-ring-at-the-gate girl..if u noe wad i mean)


so anyway we set off..
walk along the maha bodhi skul..
there were lots of vehicles along the way congesting
the whole road lar..inconsiderate parents..
me n my lil sis was laughin abt it..
anyway..i was telling her about skul..
still rmb that i told her
me:adik air pat skola botol is 90cent
kotak is 4ocent..ingat tau..anyway kalau sesat
telefon jek baby..

haha kk dat was a lil naggy..but yar..was juz relaxing her since
she was too excited..sent her right in..
met the wonderful teachers!!had a lil chat with them since they are busy
hehe..n yes saw
BESTIE nazmi who have been promoted to sec 5
he made my day..hehe
n yes my beloved junior councillors too!!
hehe fine it was great to be welcomed by them
i lurve them lots lar..
so wen the classes wen to the hall..i went to the foyer..
n meet my lil beloved juniors!!
had a long chat with my fave jr. Suhair..
n one Jr. who lurve me alot n neva forgets me..JERROLD!!
hehe..n 2 of em are all taller den me now lar..fine since they
are sec 4 now..


not fair!!hehe..but really it was heartwarming to talk to them..
Heri was there too..didnt wana disturb other Jrs in the hall so stayed at
the foyer fer a while..HEri was pretty shy meeting me..
haha dats cuz in sec skul we were really childish..we actually
played pinching each other wheneva we see each other..
hehe now dat he's in sec 2..of cuz he'll feel shy..
but yea meeting him was nice too..aww..
im so missing my sec skul mates..lurve them loads!!
n now missing my lil sis..hehe gotta go skul now..
i mean poly or wateva..haha ciaoz..

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Red or Green?
I just can't seem to make a choice!
I'm confused..
Err..Pen or pencil?
I'm still confused..
Fine both that are compared
seems so similar..
Maybe that's where my mistake is..
It's a mark..
It's been made
How do I erase it?
Eraser of liquid paper?
Im still so so confused..
Pencil mark is easier to be erased by eraser
Pen's mark can also be erased by eraser..
but juz a lil bit harder & it might tear the paper..
why don't i make myself easier and use liquid paper?
nah..dat will make it messy..
hmm..if only it was simpler..


oh wells..if only anyone wud understand what i mean in this
lil writing and come to my help at once...
having sleepless nights due to this..
btw the writing is original from me.hehe..
toodles..

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yayness!!the new year has set in..
n i spent the countdown with rabia!eating roti prata!!
haha k fine yes..12midnite eating prata..
2 egg prata for me n 2 plain prata for her..
n yes rab actually was clumsy at 12midnite..
she actually knocked down my cup of iced peach tea TWICE!
haha..kae fine..haha

before dat was having dance performance at boon lay countdown..
thx darlin khair fer droppin by my countdown performance ..
really touched to see u ther..hehe..even though..u cudnt get to c my performance
hehe..
anyway yar had a hell load of great tym..
miss khair..miss darlins..gonna c u guys tmr..wee..
niwaes following wud be ma resolution..

1)trying not to be slow..
2)trying not to be late by 5mins..hopefully..
3)to love n not to hate..hopefully..
4)to be strong and yet be herself..
5)prioritising my time real well n get organise..

cya darlins soon!

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Name.
school.
bdae
blah blah blah