yeay!!ystd was a whole load of shitty fun!!surprisingly mum brought me to vivocity!!
a place where i longed to go!!
yea!!
first tym i went to the harbourfront centre..
it was so fun!!k lar to me..
its so god damn big!!with loads of shops!!
so fun eyy..k but it took lyk two hours from my home to harbourfront..
by making a mistake to take 65..
and i fell asleep..
gosh..was so freakin tired cann??
so reached like at 8pm??or was it 7??

but anyway i energised myself as i step into dat big shopping centre..
so fun..so nice..
so beautiful..
i feel like a new life has started fer me..its so fun..
mus ask boi bring me der wit his motor lol!!once his motor is back from the workshop..
since he has been bugging me to go out wit him...

anyway the purpose of goin there was to get a coffee table..
supposed to do dat like long tym ago..
but hell!!everytings a rush..
so ma house isnt actually ready fer visitings actually..
but who cares..juz come ma house..hehe..
(sadly for stagearts jalan rayer my house wunt be open cuz ma mum working..sorry guys)

anyway,den we went vivocity!!wow!!its like taka lar..
but nicer cuz its less crowded..
love it wen theres lesser ppl..
nicer to shop..
but anyway..it was so fun and we went window shoppin
dats cuz i cant make up ma mind wat to buy..
plus its only me and mum..(and memii..dis tym i was properly dressed..hehe)
so its quality tym wit mummy..
we went in from helen(a jewellery store) to other stores selling apparels..
from bossini,warehouse,urban,giordano,baleno,my fave S&K and IP code,erm..surprisingly topshop,Fox,esprit,damn..a lot lar..
wanted go to Zara and other other stores but it takes too much tym and it was already closing..haix..

so next tym will be goin there..yay!!
pretty happy!!
k ciaoz..

Staring blankly ahead;
Just making my way through the crowd

okie..here i am posting another entry..
but actually today i have no mood to blog..im so happy lar..dunno y..
juz to happy to be true..
today im bloggin cuz nasreen pulled me along..
and im supposed ta be buying bubble tea..(MAIN PURPOSE??AHEM!!dun tell u all..haha)
so ryt now checkin my mail..and stuffs..
guess wat??
apparently lovehappens.com is not a prank lar..
haha i tot it was..since turkey invited me..so my ans to the questions were abit nonsensical..
and i was lyk supposed ta say great tings abt him..and apparently i joked abt it lar..haha..
so i tink im gonna delete and make a new story abt him..
and after dat i entered the tingy..i was surprised to see its actually a matchmaking tingy lar..
so bo liao..
nvm..
dats not it..
next ting i noe..
checked my mail..
received like lots of mails of lovehappens lar...so irritating..
so turkey wrote me a story..wanted view it but stupid skul always got dis forbidden tingy..
so cannot enter,,(sooo ANTI-CLIMAX!!)
then i saw other mails from lovehappens for this fren requests tingy...
therefore i shall go to the cyber below my blk before heading home!!yay!!


today is rather STUPID lar..
cuz one ting..i left my wallet in the bus
good news is the wallet dun contain money
bad news is it contain my house key and ez link!!its not my ez link..
its ma mum!!so shucks!!hafta go AMK interchange after skul to report it..
lucky had my billabong wallet which contain abit of money fer me cuz i fergot to bring money to skul..lol!!
den today im abit naggy..haha
n duno y dat haikel keep laughin wen he sees me..
lyk im a clown like dat..
n dat kr today is weird..dun ask me y..

haha receive like lotsa compliments today fer dressing up..
cuz fer once i hardly dress up properly(kk...NEVER k..)
den pauline tot i dress up cuz i got a guy..which is so NOT TRUE lar..
den xueling sae im bein more feminine today..(is it??was i so tomboy??lol!!)
nevertheless..only i noe the reasons y i dress up..
haha kr was bugging me to tell him y i wore the anchor necklace ystd
but i wunt tell lar...haha..
but seriously it got nothing to do with matters of the heart lar...serious serious!!
haha..so keep on guessin lar k..
(ps:actually i oso duno y i dress up lor..you guys got cheated!!hehe)


k lar..waitin fer nas to finish bloggin..and off to bubble tea and lecture!!
toodles!!

Im a genie in a bottle*winx fer those who noe wat it really means..haha*

Staring blankly ahead;
Just making my way through the crowd

hAVe been blog hopping..and i wanna shout!!
a lil shout out:-
I WANNA GO VIVOCITY!!
I WANNA GO OUT!!
I WANN MY SAKURAIANS!!
I WANNA GO STOCK UP ON MY CLOTHINGS!!!!

peace out..ppl who wan go vivocity and haven go pls beep me!!!*desperate*

Staring blankly ahead;
Just making my way through the crowd

yea!!its raya tym!!hooray!!cant wait to celebrate it with my fellow frenz whether muslim or not..
thx fer all the festive greetings i received from many fellow frens..
its tym fer festive mood!!yay!!
but sadly im skuling during dis festive season..so boring!!
but nvm..my other frens are oso skuling..so dat leaves the weekends for jalan rayer..lol!!
(thoughts:im not alone!!haha)

anyway,im so so happy on the eve of rayer..!!
me and my mum and sis went bazaar fer the last tym dis year to get goodies..
especially FOOD!!mann!!
im so contented to get the ayam percik literally translated as splattered chicken..
and the dendeng..haha..yummy yummy yum yumm!!
hmm..bought some stuffs..
but one think i noe fer sure i have different view on "mats"(literally:typical malay guys)
find dat they are actually quite good looking..though none make my heart go ...(umm wats dat word??*thinkin hard*)
ouh yar..none make mi go gaga..lol!!(dats cuz i wasnt really dressed up..i wore t-shirt with shorts!!can u imagine??!)
but imagine being crammed up with dis guys..haha..

so first day of rayer started as i woke up late..at 11am!!(dats cuz we reached home at 1am from bazaar..)
as usual..my mum started nagging...and nagging..after checkin out from other muslim frens..dats wat their mums do too..
nag early in the morning..
followed by usual routine of having my rendang!sambal tumis udang!!slurps!!
my fave!!
followed by asking fer forgiveness..
visited my aunt,nenek and my grandpa!
missed my grndpa loadz!!
but he could not recognise my younger sis..lol!!
dats cuz my lil sis dun stay with him during childhood days..
a whole load of thank you to him fer his great upbringing..
but din ask forgiveness from grandpa cuz his not a muslim..(pls dun ask me y...cuz my family is a lil complicated..lol!)


oh wells to cut short the day was filled with loads of green packets and some yellow packets(literally)
and loads of rendang!!delicious!!
today goin fer another visiting..but its a fren visiting..cant wait fer it though..

anyway im taking dis opportunity to wish fellow muslims selamat hari rayer maaf zahir dan batin!!
frens who want to cum down my hse..please drop mi msg or call me in advance..else i wunt be there..
and no surprise visit..else i get scolded by mum fer no reason..make sure call or msg a day or two before coming kaes..
thx!!
fer those groups outing juz beep me..
sakuraians,sec skul clique,councillors outing is after o's.
poly freaks...
dats a lot!!whee..

thoughts:why is selamat hari raya greeted dat way but not literally greeted in english "safe day raya??"
(psst..wats raya in english??)


updates on me:FEELING MUCH BETA!!GETTIN ON MY LIFE W/O LOOKING BEC!!WOOHOO!!

Staring blankly ahead;
Just making my way through the crowd

haha..Kudos to me fer skippin skul two days without the need of doin make-up fer ma clinical
hooray!!
had a hell load of fun n thurs!!
met bestie nazmi!!
mann..his stitches were yulky lar..
he changed alot mann..
he kinda tone down alot..
but anyways remain being my bestie..was super duper happy meetin him..
since his like my part time guardian angel..

saw my cadets of SJAb!
and damn how cud i ferget sum of their names..
jing ru,viknesh..n those i ferget their names so sorry...
but rmb vanessa and kimberlyn..
sorry lar..long tym neva meet my darling cadets...
promise u guys i will come down fer one of the SJAB day alritey..
haha feel lurved by u guys!!

Saw some teachers..but didn really greet them or anitin lar...
was more to seeing my juniors..
anyway dats it lar..
cant be bothered to blog summore..

anyway..memii and nas..we are goin bonkers lar..
wakaka..
sorry to my classmates if ive been rather rude,too loud or if i eva scold u unintentionally..
ive been rather crazy dis days..so if i hurt u juz tell me straight aite..
thought of the day:laughter isn't everythin..it sumtyms hurt ppl when u laugh too much..
so yea..gonna control my laughter before anyone is hurt by it

Staring blankly ahead;
Just making my way through the crowd

yay!1its skul day!and apparently..im so lackin the mood to go fer skul lar..
freakin sick and bored of skul.
anyway had a hell load of fun last weekend...
went out to esplanade underground to dance..
coincidentally saw lil fir n jocelyn..so ended up dancin together..
anyways..the B-girls from RP was uber cool lar..yea met them fer lyk the ferst tym..
anyways dance..n cam-whored a lil(dats lyk contradictin..lol!)..
den wen breakfast wit lil fir,jocelyn n rab...
at marina FOOD LOFT!!I LURVE the popiah!!its super nice!!
soft on the outside crunchy in the inside..its super delicious..yumyum..makin my mouth watery..slurp!!
kk...den after dat we went to the bay...had some tym der..
n yesh!!finally found the cafe where ppl go juz to eat chocolates and nothin else...
dats lyk so cool!
wishin sumone wil gimme a treat there one day!haha..lets make dat my bdae wish..hmm
(yaya..my bdae lyk next year lar..irritatin!)


anyway,actually got lyk loads of stuffs to tok abt lar..
the poly attachment was nice..but i was bullied by one of the stupid nurses!!
irritatin sey.the nurse didnt wan to sign my book juz cuz i answered her back..dat is lyk so duh!!
childish mann!!
but its not ma fault lar...i took the height of the baby..
told her the height(which is 49cm..) and she did not believed me..so she took again
and it is 49cm..n she said i told her dat it was 45cm..
i told her that i said it was 49cm..even the mother of the baby agreed..
and cuz of dat she din wan sign..how childish mann..
but after a few days she signed my book...irritatin..


hah anyway ppl sorry if my blog like got a malay lingo..trying to speak malay
so dat i can communicate with my malay patients in future..haha..
life is fun dis days..
n got to noe dat my bestie nazmi had a lil accident!!
dat was a bit shockin lar..but anyways will be meetin him most prolly dis thurs
to see his lil wound on his hand..
haha..now dat his n'level exams are over..i have a guardian angel..

well anyways,you noe..
actually i feel fortunate..
wen im alone i think of my frens..
n if i think of u(yes anyone of my frens readin my blog or those not aware of ma blog..)i will send u a sms..
im kinda happy leadin ma lyf now though abit emo at tyms..(well im coping wit it..)at least i noe frens are there fer me..sumtyms wen ppl send me those frenly msges(gotten mostly by nazmi n rizal..)..
im grateful fer i noe that there are ppl who think abt me..
well yea..by now u can sae im a sentimental person deep inside..cuz i dun show it lar..
in fact i keep msges which are nice and sweet..
and sumtyms wen i got nothin to do i read it again..
especially wen i feel down...
my life a lil complicated but thank god ive got frens who are there fer me.
lurve my lyf,lurve my frens..lurve all of u..
aww....

kk nxt topic..
dance!!shit lar!!today is dance assessment n i tink i will not make it lar..
no tym to prac fer it..wit all those kicks and pirouttes and all those turns..plus the choreos..
theres lyk 4 choreo to showcase if im not wrong..haiz stressing to my donkey brain..
okie lar...im off to prac during ma break(ya dis is ma break tym..2hrs break..)
haha..sorry if im a lil bit too wordy and chatty here..cuz no one to tok to lyk all my stories very long..haha..so end up toking to ma blog..haha..
irritatin!peace off

(sorry if u all are irritated..haha.)

Staring blankly ahead;
Just making my way through the crowd

well,later will be having an outing with ma clique..
yea..juz as i was abt to celebrate our first gatherin after sucha long tym..
im so gonna be god damn bored..
cuz all da gals are bringin their boo...
askin me to bring mine as well..but lil do they noe dat im single..
yea..dun wish to tell em later on..fer i dowan the nyt later to be filled wit my stories..
as usual will be myself..happy and cheerful..
deluding myself from all the troubles im facing..
yea!!but wadtha heck they bringin their boo along..
guess it will be much of a show-off-ur-boo nyt...
well shud be happy fer em..
and my closest fren in da clique..u juz got a boo??wow!!
amazed..but wish ya all da best with ya boo..
haha..well will see how the nyt is fer me tonyt..
gonna enjoy the nyt of foodie treats..and dendeng!!yea!!haha..


n thx mum fer giving me money today..fer ironing ur uniform..
i noe u cud actually juz gimme lyk dat but u were late fer work dats y its juz an excuse..
haha..i noe u mummy too well..anyway thx!!(dat means an extra foodie treats..yea...yumyum)
who cares if there are guys around??well we'll juz partay..
lucky me got my bestie not bringin her boo..ahakz..
it sure gonna be awkward fer the guys..but me no care..


stupid haze is making me have difficulty breathing mann..
lyk im dying any moment cuz im not feelin any oxygen filling ma lungs..
juz wish fer the rain to come pourin..so that the haze will be lessened by alot..
stupid forest fire,stupid scorching sun..

rain rain come again
come again today afternoon
wish i may wish i might
have the heaviest rain in the afternoon
p/s:its afternoon k..dun cum at nyt cuz i dowan be drenching wet later..ahakz..

toodles..

thoughts of the day:why is it both of us arent linking each other ..neither are we tagging each other but choose to read each other's blog in secrecy??

Staring blankly ahead;
Just making my way through the crowd

yesterday had company home..yea..
juz as i was sitting alone in the bus..msging lil fir..(was surprised to get a msg from him lar...)
was looking at the tym..thinkin wad tym am i gonna reach home since it was lyk late at nyt(11plus at nyt)..
still typing my msg..(of cuz lar..had to send sumthin meaninful to lil fir fer his bdae..)
sumone called ma name...(shit!!im alone..who called me mann..)
turned around and guess who i saw??
khamsani(AGAIN??!!)and FARDIL..yea!!
missed fardil mann..so we ended up chattin and chattin..
if not fardil wud be in NYP taking nursing mann..
dat self-proclaimed cocky guy had taken nursing too at ite..cuz he failed his maths..
but aniwaes surprisingly he was attached to SGH oso on the dae dat i had attachie!!
and his ward was 73..juz a level up my ward..anyway he saw me..
so yea..had a whole load of fun toking to him....with his cocky jokes..
and im soo super jealous of him fer getting loads of compliments from the patients lar!!
exchanged numbers to keep in contact..yea tok to kham oso..
he is one lil guy dat seems charming now rather den last tym..
no wonder ezan..*ahem*haha
chat and chat till it reached my stop..alighted down the bus..
and hell yea...it was great toking to him..
well it was juz a coincidence meeting kham twice..haha..
off to home!




anyway khair..
i wudnt wanna noe wat is love..im juz staying away from it fer as far as i noe..

Staring blankly ahead;
Just making my way through the crowd

haiz here i am again posting another entry..before i log off to meet julian at the dance studio...
rushing this piece but..well i make it a lil meaningful


yea...a few days back..was talking wit turkey about wat lurve is..
so a few days later it got me confused...
yea..again..
He told me wat lurve was according to him..
and wat ma meaning was..
so now im stuck again..
is there really true love??
not that i eva experience it before..
haiz so dis ma explanation of lurve after a long tym thinkin

Theres no such thing as true lurve ryt??
lurve is juz somethin btwn two ppl..lyk turk saes..
its natural feeling cuz we are born with feelings..
so naturally we will be attracted to ppl..
so yea..
but y did god created lurve??
I now agree with turk wen he saes lurve=stupidity
in other words it does make u a fool..
it make u carve ur hands,hurt urself,sacrifice ur utmost passion to juz do sumting fer the lurve one..
well at least..i felt like a fool..reminiscin those pasts i had wit my past..
coming home late night,having to juggle heartpains and family matters aside..
its all hard work...
and all those lies that i told my parents wen i wanted to get out wit ma ex..
i felt sinful..
sin to my parents..
n yea..did i rmb turk saying lurve was a sin..
yea..it was a sin..
make u sin to urself n ur family..n frens..
i felt bad..mayb this tym round if i eva gonna have a guy..i will bring the guy to ma parents.
no more sins this tym...
Im juz gonna learn from my mistakes..and not repeat them..hopefully..


well..another mistake that i hope i will not do is..
not to fall in lurve wit a best fren u once have..
keep it platonic..
cuz u if u eva fall in lurve wit him/her..
and one day you gonna breakup..
trust me..its hard to maintain that frenship u once had..
ive tried it once wit my ex..who is a besfren of my yet another passion..-ART..
yea...we became frens after the breakup..but onli fer awhile...den..voila..nothin much..

Next i was with my considered a gd fren since sec 1..always teasing here n there n voila we were together..ended up at recent breakup..
it made me a fool..
despite all the shitt dat i got i still made the effort to be frens with him..
but voila..it backfired..n yea i did not stop at one try..i tried again and again..
till today i realised..
yea..maybe im juz too stupid..
i will juz stop here..i hope..
i hope sumone will help me from being a fool again..
..
n 1 ting i really dunno fer sure..
y do girls/guys cry after they do such stuffs??
is it because they r sympathizing with themselves fer bein stupid??
or do they juz feel hurt and rejected??i feel dumb ryt now...sumone show me the way..


well last words..i will neva noe wat lurve is after all..
lurve is juz like a fire..
its either ur friend or foe..


Now dat i noe ur thinkin..well i rather stop being a fool and stop contactin u..
throwin away all ur promises u made wit me ..
taking all my energy and shiftin it to my passion..
-im bruised again...

kk..changin attitude fer ma dance..lalalaz...

Staring blankly ahead;
Just making my way through the crowd

Hola!!Hols coming to an end..
and ystd was msging memii on the phone(LikE where else can you do msging??)
so we were chattin abt this contest..(hush hush..cant say out wat contest it is..)
anyway..so were talk talk n talk till..we changed topic about hols...


i wished i had more hols..
and spent the time sleepin..
memii said it was not a meaningful holiday..
wadtha heck??it got me thinkin straight..wat da hell did i do diz hols..??
*Scratch*


it was simply beautiful...
im juz living a day by itself...
I dun plan for anything..
damn..dat isnt meaningful...


My mY!!it aint meaningful..
say somethin that will make me feel better mann..
hmm..
my hOls are meaningful...with wat??
Loadz of beauty sleep(super long hours of sleep...)
Gosh!!i really aint using my hols up to its max!!


*thinkin harder*...
ahhh...yes...
i've been busy dancing remember??
yea..
that is meaningful..
dancing in the holidays...
preparing for at-that-moment-nerve-wrecking performances..
that usually followed by a small lil outing..
went to overdrive competition(a hip hop dancing competition)
and reached home till wee hours...
one ting that makes me lurve dancing during hols is dat i dun get
any nagging frm mum...dats simply make dancin really cool..

wad else do i do??
actually mostly is juz dancing activities and stagearts outing lor..
then wen got tym go bazaar..and yeps..i really lurve going bazaar..
Loads of FOOD...
haha..goin there again this weekend with my GrEat fUn CliQuE...
hope to find my chirpy self back with them..

BEsides that im busy making cookies for the upcoming hari raya...
erm..goin out with my mum and family..
most of the tym i spent is with my family lor..
isnt that meaningful..ahakz...
then wen skul starts i'll have lyk lesser tym with my family..
yea ppl im a homely girl...ahakz..at tyms..

k lar..i guess dats it.whoopie..
off fer my meaningful hols..haha..

Staring blankly ahead;
Just making my way through the crowd

yEaps...so busy dis days!!
Haven HAd thE TYm to havE tHE tYM to mYSeLF..(Y Do i EveN nEED tym To mYseLF..??)
yea..Shud SAe hAveN haD tym fEr My FreNs..EsPEciAllY beLOVed CliQuE!
NiwaeS oN saTuRday i sAw kHamsaNi..dat kambing..haha..
he cant recognise me until i was about to leave the ballroom at swissotel..
haha...reminiscing abt the sec 2 camp mann..


NiwAes..im so tempted to eat mann..
nono..not dat i dowan fast but..
ive the temptation to indulge in sweets and chocs..and good food..
probably imagining me savouring delicacies and stuffs...(slUrrP!!)
oUh wEll i missed those tyms of fine dining wit my mum..and yea my younger sis..
and we will be lyk the country bumpkin not noe-ing how to eat wit the so many forks and spoons on the the table...haha...
and hell yeah.. apparently I overheard a chocolate buffet restaurant opening!!
Yea!!CaNt wait to set my foot off to that place..after fasting month that is...(oMG!!)
And yea..at last my clique will be out together again dis weekend!!hopefully to geylang and break fast together...how i missed lea..fatt..n hairi!!haha..
will be back again!!UniTy simply rocks!!


NiWaEs KuDos to me and mY new crEW Fer ClIncHIn dat LiL pErForMAnCe sooN!!yea!!

Staring blankly ahead;
Just making my way through the crowd

Name.
school.
bdae
blah blah blah