haha...
so many cuties...
yikes...
and yikes...
im into mats..
lol...duno why..n dun eei cuz i used to say eeii...
im blessed cuz have been seeing much cute guys..
lol...
haha...
still luv being single...
no control..
psst...dat male nurse exudes a charm...
lalala..



err...
u chose the decision..
i followed the way..

once bitten twice shy...
getting nowhere...
pretence is just my way out..
sorry if it hurts you...
but its beta dis way...

promises are meant to be broken...
well this seems to be true with you..
let the chapter close...
and yes...
u left me...
and so....i have to move on...
sorry on my part for the broken promise...
i had no choice...but to move on..
and well i guess i heard alot abt you...
its amazing discovery shocking truth!!multiply by three...

aniwae
yay!!meeting bestie tmr before attachie...
well loving bestie more and more...
wee...so memii expect my endorphins to release more and do see me smiling
hehs....
counting down....5 more days to end of attachie..
means end of...err...
cute ppl...
starting of dancing marathon..haha

rmb vote FOR SFB!!!
toodles!!

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woops!!
i just realise that my blog can be accessed by err...
haha cant tell y'all..
but woops!!
darnz..embarrassed like a hellashitta...(whereva i got dat word from)

but oh wells lemme update you with ma intresting yet nott intresting week dat i had...
haha..

Monday
The first day of my attachie..
wasnt nice..
c-class ward as stated in previous blog..
Don't like it..
everything's sucky..
not mucha nice nurses..
dozens of patients...yulks hate it...
went home..n was very tired..irritated by NYP's school management...
so sucky larr...
n Thanx to ALL lecturers that wasnt a tad helpful...
(note the sarcasm)

Tuesday
ahh..lurve tues like a hellaFUN mann!!!
had SHS posting to St Hilda's pri...
the lil kids was way too cute...
somehow its like a teeny break away from hospital attachie..
so relaxing..
I lurve~
hehe..there's this lil gerl dat was afraid of injection dat she grabbed my hand fer
"physical support"
lol..
but all we had to do was JUST OBSERVE..
how boring....
but fun..
bring me back to primary skul days...
where the sink of toilet were so tiny...
but thank god they had staff toilet..
and the best ting eva...
i saw AMSYAR!!!wee~haha
he was in pink..
yada yada...guys look cute in pink...(BUT NOT ALL!!)
haha sadded cuz i was in the bus...lol...
so ended up msging each other..
how sweet....

Wednesday
still SHS posting..
cute lil kids...
there's this pretty girl..
no CUTE!!!
nur sabrina's her name..
fatt's sis name..haha
haha apparently it made me ask whether she had brother..lol
and my fren tot i was flirting...
yikes...
but it was unconscious tho...
cuz i was askin if she had a lil bro...haha...
and my shs frens are coolsome...
they are so fun..esp rekha and amrita..
sadded!last dat of shs=starting of hospital attachie
extra info:wth!!SFB got bottom 3??like where the other votes gone to??

Thursday
(drags feet..)
hospital attachie..
how boring...
but..
did last office...
patient pass away..
yikes creepy...
so didnt go for dance knowing that im gonna go home alone...

Friday
(beginning to pick up my feet..)
Its kinda fun..that i always had to do assisted bath...
which means more time to waste..lol..
anyways, dun like that yaya papaya staff who isnt a nurse yet a staff nurse..
so irritating...
but it was the end of the day...thank god..
9more days to attachie

Saturday
had a photoshoot...
yikes!duno how many times they snap..
and that huge lightings were juz a sore to my eyes..was a bit teary..
and dat thick make up was jus to heavy...
and gosh!!i look like typical chinese...
waliao...
but hellashuckz..
that gown didnt allow me to breathe..
waiting fer the negatives though..
went to visit granny..
miss her so much..
but just stayed there fer awhile
saw jimmy that indo guy that was much sought after by girls..
but not me..lol..haha

SUnday/today
brought my cat for this speed-swatting competition..
it was so comical that all the cats..in fact none of them swat that
feathery tingy..
and all the competitor's cats were clinging on to the owner...
my girl(that's ma cat..) cling on to me like a baby larr.. so cute ryt...
and yea..
so the organisers decided to change the competition to cat walking..
cuz none of the cats swat the tingy..
and guess wat..??
i tink my cat is not a cat..
cuz it doesnt even walk..
it just rested on the stage...
lol!
and then went it came down the stage it hid under this
fan and remove the leash
very funny....lol!!
aniwae,
one ting abt pet's events..
everyone is friendly..
a source of socialising...
people just kepp coming up and talk to you..
and dat was apparently the first time i was surrounded with a
lot of dogs and not get frightened..
its fun..
n yes..there were youngsters too..like me duh..



thats ma summary of the week..starting of yet another irritating attachie...
missing dance...
missing someone...
and yet being quiet and introverted this days...
mum complains that im in my own world..
am i??
haha..i do..
and i look dreamy...
yay!!let the attachi end fast fast and i shall get out with ma homies!!
FATT countdown kaes...i'll be free and single soon..
(AS in not attaching haha )

and enjoy ur week-a-hols people...

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Just making my way through the crowd

iT's just a facade..DOn't be deceived...its a pretense
This seems to be the line i keep chanting on in my heart...

(not to be bothered by my tagline...)
anyways today first day of attachment...
yes its culture shock larr..
first tym gettin C class..
and FEMALE ward!!haiz how boring can that be..
I rather do male ward cann..
seeing female not able to tolerate..so irritating...
n getting sucha big ward with bad practices...
ouh thx to bestie nazmi fer making me smile early in the morning..
haha dat really start my day well..
and thx to sheil for that morning msg..
that helped me smile..
niwaes theres TWO MALE nurse!!
haha okie very chundi..
and very charming...
and very like fardil..
haha..
now im missing fardil..
where the hell are u??
quick go attachie with me and ease my pain away pleasee..


I dont thinkl dat i like this attachie tho..its manual BP...
haizz..
arh!!i nid hugs!!loads and loads of it..
and haikel where are you!!i wan tok to you again!!
and fatt..i need a get out with you!!
ANd dance..
need doses of it lar...
haiz...
okie i gtg call the stupid stuffz!!for stupid stuffz!!
kinda pissed but i'll smile..
it's not hard i guess...


and may thx fer making the joke..haha
may's joke:

may:Where's Rui ning
Me:err yar it rain juz now...
Memii:Thanx for the weather forecast rab!

laugh laugh laugh...
okie this joke still do make me laugh..!!
hahaha..

toodles people...





ending tagline:If it shall be ,It shall be..
If its a facade you know it too..
If it's betraying you know it too..
If it's not worth it den move on..
Cuz i tink i am..and not worth it..
Thx!



FATT!!!ME NEEDS YOU!!!lets go stomp the yard!!!

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Staring blankly ahead;
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Staring blankly ahead;
Just making my way through the crowd

haha..cant blog now...on the phone...
haha intended to.. but hahs..

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Take note that this entry contains profanity..
too bad i cant take it..argh....



Pea brain pea brain..im sucha pea brain..
thanx khair fer checkin my results..n hell ya..
ive neva checked ma results..
thank khair fer checkin it..
and therefore im goin crazee over it ..okie psychotic to be precise...
F*ck..i failed my psycho..n yes..pls take note of this date cuz its been a long tym since i utter word of profanity..
F*ck..psycho never gets in ma brain at all..
all those learning curve,emotional shitt and what nots..
its just drving me insane..
no..PSYchotic to be precise..
so how can a psychotic gurl learn psycho..
its juz in them n so they dun need to learn..
haha craps..yikes..
so hell ya...
tmr remedial..
n apparently premmy not goin..having supp paper next tues hais..
needa arrange fer ma attachment dates so it wunt clash..
shitty shit..
well for now...

Pea brain pea brain..
no..rmb teaching fatt this
"you babycinno,wild strawberry,caramel swirl...
oh wells,best part of it...you dum dum...hahs..okie"
fine...im juz bent on condemning myself to pieces...
wadahell..


okie fine the cherry on top of the cake is ..i got one dist...
yet im still a pea brain..
k lar...gotta ciaoz...
happy hols!!

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urgh!!Irritating lor..
here's a lesson fer y'all..
dun msg sumone perhaps u lyk when

1)ur prepaid left a freakin few cents..
cause that will make u rather anxious if the person tends to msg more than u expected..
argh!!
2)your phone gonna die down..
cause mine did in the middle of freakin sms chat at 2 plus am!!..
argh..


okie fine so obviously my phone has died literally..
it decided to end its life and sabotaged its owner 2plus in the morning..
therefore not allowing the owner to retrieve all the contact info that's been stored in the phone..
so the owner sadly cant get to contact with argh...
that person..
heart pain mann..hais..
so pls all frens do msg me your number..
arh...luckily got fatt to help me gimme sakuraians number..
haha
okie but shit lor..
i've to find a freakin flexible part tym job to sponsor me money and
hopefully that agency will call me up by monday..
really need fast cash to get a new phone perhaps..

im really on a tight budget till i get ma part tym job..
Flexible part tym job..
so holla...

niwaes danceworks rawk lar..waiting for dance on dis tues!!
wee...

and apparently my health is getting bad to worst dis days..
haha!!from sorethroat which hurts like hell and restricting me from my normal food intake..
to fever..to migraine..and its like a curve pattern lor..
argh wonder what else comes..hope this stops soon..

niwaes i jus discovered an amazing discovery...
SHOCKIN TRUTH RIGHT IN MY FACE!!SO UNBELIEVABLE..
haiz...

ok lar..shall get a go now..
ciaoz..
and enjoy hols yar!!wee...

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the following poem or prose or whateva u call it is composed by me duh..
and hence the copyright sign-duh!
haha oh wells i took nearly a week to compose dis so do enjoys..
err...like so obvious its wat i tot it is..and it may not be??
ouh crapp!juz read on yea..


Title:??hmm thinkin wat title to give ryt now??


Bestie,Enjiyel,now what's next??

My no.1
You taught me the meaning of fun
you made me happy
you made me sporty
and you were a lil naughty

We bwcame closer
when I was with my lover
You were there for me
And never considered it a bother
Eventhough pouring problems to you
seems like forever

Being there for you
was never a chore
For your the greatest friend
I simply could adore

Despite the distances and levels
we're in
Somehow we manage to
Fit in
Even if you're not physically there for me
I know you're just a ring away from me

You never fail to bring me loads of laughter
ANd you're the one gals usually sought after
Soon after I wasn't with my lover
MEt you and him at a party-
Seeing you sullen and sombre
Then i realise you start to drift-
Further and further

YOu think you're the cause of the break up
thus made me feel that i put you in a spot
you made me wanna cry
as i start to pry
But soon you made me understand
And assure me where I stand

I lurve you my friend
For you're the one that truly care
though now it seems you're busy there
We'll still be there for each other
When one stumble after another
Pickin us up till life goes on after..



My no.2
Ur the light of my life
Widen my perspection
seeing things in a different dimension

Made me laugh when you needed to
brought me smiles
that wasn't a feat to you

We were nothing but like a tv set
and a remote control
there for each other in need to be
even at the weirdest hour
we'll still lend our shoulder
'thinkin that this will last forever

But now you need the control no more
why?
IS it the blunder i made?
or the words i said?

Don't be in denial
Cause people have seen
And told me it shouldn't have been
ANd if others could point it out
Then i should start to doubt..

But where's the promise you made to me?
While holding on to me
as fishes in the reservoir
And birds in the trees
Witness you infusing me
with a sense of acceptancy

I'm now drunk on a cocktail
of feelings.Confusion.
Prod me no more
Cause i won't be a pussyfoot no more

I shall just let you be
Your dark secrets shall just be within me
I won't threat
neither will I use it to brag

ANd if you've no one to turn to
You know I'm still here waiting for you
I had and will still miss you
For your the one that made me special too..

I wish you'd repeat teh words you said
But now i guess it starts to fade
I shan't bother and trouble you my friend
No doubt you gave me that special scent

Take care my friend
The remote control will be where its
used to be


My no.3
Your my mystery
I wonder if i get to meet you
my future bestie

Will you be the one that make my grey skies blue
will you be there when i need you
ANd will you listen without judgin
Know without asking

Will you luv me as i am
and be strong not to fall for who i am?
Will you play along my childish antics
go along with my crazy ideas
Now tell me what you pick
For every outing won't be the same for sure

Will you hold my hand
and shower me with hugs?
Even for no reason you do
For i'll treasure our friendship too..

If there ever was a conflict that occur
would you run away from me
And let my history recur?
Knowing it will hurt me that much
to lose a friend just like that
even if the conflict i do start

Instead will you hold my hand
and solve the conflict hand in hand?
gimme a hug after that you can??
please please tell me if you can

i Don't need a boyfriend
what i need is just a bestfriend
a natural endorphin
Who's there for me through thick and thin

Now you're only a mystery
I hope you do appear right before me
I'll do what it takes to be your bestie too
and shower you with friendship lurve-
juz like you'd do..

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haha!!ive changed blogskin!!
yay!!
haha wonder why??
make a guess!!

haha cuz the previous blogskin kinda so emo emo yet sentimental..
i dun wanna potray my sentimental side nimore..
hahs!!let my sentimental side be shown to my true-st fren
haha.
so yar..
no more emo no more lurve..
err wait-a-minute!!
of cuz there's luv..hehe..
n if there's emo it cum in a different form..lol!

yap..y hiphop??
cuz i lurve hiphop!!
n yay!!dat known choreographer (err..jimmy sumthin)
gonna teach us MILKING!!wee!!!
now where's the cow??
haha..
n sadded dat we're not gonna compete for danceworks..
but oh wells!!i still lurve hiphop..
(p/s:err..milking is one of the dance errr y shud i sae..technique??
hmm yar juz like crumping,crunking,popping..milking is one of the hiphop technique i guess..)

oh wells..
n dis bloggie skin doesnt allow black fonts!!yikes..
and as u can see im so lazy to change my previous entries fonts..
and please do inform me if anythin on the blog is missing..hehe...

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Name.
school.
bdae
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