Thursday, May 08, 2008 ; 4:30 PM
dance..
a passion where we meet
by passion we let our friendship breed
by choice we make our passion grow...
and let our dreams succeed...
Ive join dance in poly for 2years and going...
and im glad and happy to be accepted in auditions for my club back in yr1..
for i had no dance background to start with..
back in secondary 1 i joined contemporary dance..
but i quited cz it wasnt benefitting at all as they did only ONE choreo for the ENTIRE year...
and ONE performance for that year only...how pathetic...
but after i quited they had a new dance instructor which was awesome...
he did nice pieces of choreo...
and i believe he is related to stagearts somehow..
cuz i saw him at one of our Stagearts production..
but anw i don't count my contemp dance as a background..
k..back to my dance...
we learned hiphop the first year..
and slowly transit into jazz syllabus training..
my year 1 dance experience was great..
the dance assessment was fun..we had to dress up for it..
rmb my team wearing yellow...
and i rmb jing wei saying tt he dun like to dance Don't cha cuz its girly..
it was fun and we had this competitive spirit to win other groups..
training was one hell of a shit...seriously...
the stretchings were crazy...but then it helped to discipline us...
there was this spirit of "one die all die together"
besides tt we had dance performances outdoor and indoors...
as much as our instructors want to put all of us up..
we still had to "fight" for our space to dance..
in a way show tt we are capable of having that spot to perform..
remember feeling jittery at my first dance performance at bishan park..
for ive never dance outdoors before..
we wore red and did locking..
we had other performances too..at thai embassy and all..
my first competition exposure was in SA too..
hiphophunt..
i was selected to be part of it....
i was super jittery abt it...
for i had no background at all compared to the rest around me..
rmb all the late night trainings...
rmb me rushing to Funan IT mall with weilin after attachment at SGH..
i ended attachment at 9pm and went to the dance studio there for a rehearsal with my team mates..
we ended at midnite but the senior team stayed on...
next was danceworks but we didnt really get to go for it...
and we were VERY disappointed(from what i noe from sha and beiyi)...
rmb me and beiyi with our younger sis actually went to watch danceworks that year tgt...
not forgetting being part of NYP musical was a great exposure too..
and that period of time i was having probs at home..
its those bittersweet memories of musical i love..
getting noe one another...
being there for one another...
and not only for SA but other dance groups in NYP...
there was alot of memories when i was a junior...
when my dance instructor was there...
when there was a spirit....
altho we get F-ed alot...but its all for the better of us...
Now...things are different...
i rmb zee asking me when she was putting on foundation for me for clubcrawl performance
"how come u look sad"
and i told her...because the feeling is different from last year's clubcrawl..
its sad...
Its not because of peter leaving us...maybe partly of tt??im not too sure..
but its just tt i don't feel the dancers dying spirit to perform...
no spirit...
there's this mindset like "its just a performance"
its not JUST a performance...
i rmb looking forward to my first clubcrawl performance..
but this time its GONE...
even during trainings..there was no "one die everyone die" concept...(As said by sha)
when zee talked to us on tues..that's what tt went thru my mind and alot more...
i wished i could have spoken up to her on tt day to tell her to stay..
but i guess ALL of us took for granted of her presence...
i felt i had no right to ask her to stay..
would the rest appreciate her too??
I can't guarantee her tt..and tt's y i didnt speak up but teared instead..
and the fact tt she had sacrificed/risked/injure her own rship cuz of us...
im one who dun reveal my real inner feelings..
im emotionally handicapped and tts y..
and if not cuz of alumni like her coming back to help us..
the club wud not have survived...
and zee..like i said i dun say my feelings out....
but just wanna let u know i love ur choreos....
and i felt u and teared when u danced because of u the other day when u showed us solo for clubcrawl's preparation
im touched tt u had sacrificed ALOT for us!!thx alot...
dance is more than passion and i hope the remaining of us will work hard for it...
Staring blankly ahead;
Just making my way through the crowd