Saturday, March 22, 2008 ; 6:07 PM
blogger's note to self:freaky shit...i've defeated myself just by pouring my hearts content publicly again!!phfft!
a dream...
a sweet dream...
the power of a dream...
evokes back the feeling i once had for you...
its a brand new feeling of you...
its weird..
but its special...
expecting no reciprocal...
no need for the mutuality...
let it be
..
im a dreamer i admit...
i wanted to dismiss this dream as hey-its-just-a-dream...
but using my psychology knowledge...
dreams are what u have in ur subconscious mind...
so that means...
in my subconscious mind i AM thinking abt you..
thou consciously i aint thinking abt you..
when i woke up from this dream was
like the day tt i text u in the dawn when i had a nightmare abt you b4 u left..
where i felt like hugging you cuz im afraid to lose you..
but this dream..it was sweet...
and i woke up in the dawn too...
i felt like hugging you too and with words i'd whisper "where you've been all this while"...
and then i realise how much i missed you..
and with that i decided to text you...
texting u seem to be a heavy thing for me to do..
cuz i no longer noe when's the right time to txt u..
whether i still have the right to txt u such things..
but i went ahead with it..cuz my heart told me to do so...
i didnt noe how to put my words..
and with that i had alot of drafts..
before sending u the final short one...
followed by my heart screaming""ARRGH..i just want to tell you that i miss you FULLSTOP!""
uh uh uh uh!!*smacks head with pillow!!*
its crazy..
and i miss u..really...
and im not askin for anything..
if only u noe it..
emotionally handicapped..
im a strong girl but love made me helpless!!
Staring blankly ahead;
Just making my way through the crowd