long update
Wednesday, December 26, 2007 ; 9:21 PM
a holiday gone wrong...
not gonna blog abt it...
just tt..i fell sick but still had my cup of peace and serenity away from home...
but anyways..
let me lift up my own spirit..
if u allow me to..
haks...
so im back from holidays...
i missed molly so much lar...
cuz before i left spore...i contacted her..
confided in her...
BT with her...for hours..
sure miss those times back where we BT almost every other day
oh yea..
came back and contacted her STAT DOSE..
haha stories to tell ma...duh!
so after a day back from holiday
im LOST lar...
i didnt even noe bio results was out on the 18th...
and i only found out thru molly's blog like today..
that is like 1wk and 2days SLOW!!..
so i asked her as soon as i saw her online...
and apparently she thought i knew abt it...
cuz they were talking abt the results during our first sub-grp meeting..
so obviously i wasnt mentally there..
*slaps myself for being a kuku*
haha..but anw heard tt i got a B+..
im so bloody happy cuz i got a B+ when i only studied it the day before..
but naahs...im never gonna take sucha risk again...
i wanna thx martini for the uselful help...
the heavy book was worth bringing back and fro..(well i borrowed martini from the library)
next week will be attachie..
im soo looking forward to it..
hoping tt my grades will raise a bar up..
heard tt it is a depressing ward...oncology
and the last time i felt depressed for my patients was during my paeds attachie
i hope it will not be that depressing..
but a feeling of depressing makes me feel human...
and so i will face it...
hmm...
gonna read up before going to tt ward...
since my previous comments and feedback was tt i have to read more..
and i have to start learning to foster good working skills with the staffs there..
Basically have one semester left before PRCP...
i cant visualise myself being a GOOD staff nurse after i graduate..
doing things on AUTO MODE...
knowing things at the back of my fingertips..
relating well to clients and colleagues..
juggling between my career,friends and importantly supporting my family
im excited for the challenge up ahead..
a path that i CHOSE..
and i noe there's still some of my dreams ive yet to achieve like taking an interior design course..
continuing my passion for art..
but right now...let me face the challenge..
mayn i feel old..cuz im starting my career real soon..
and im gonna realise my dreams to travel and take the aeroplane with the babes after PRCP before working..
my future is bright...
my future is my concern...
my freedom will be next..
and so my happiness within my family will soon come along...
i hope..
and i hope for a complete reunion of my family...
a home where i can look forward to going back..
this is my long update!!hehe
closing a chapter of my life
before u came,i was alone...
when u came i had you...
now ur gone,im alone...
the feeling s***ed
but i have no difficulties going on my own way
from where i started..
im not waiting for you..
(i will never wait for any guy..)
i was just waiting for an ans..
but now i got the ans..
im happy...
i never wanted or expected to be ur girl
and tts y i neva tell u wat i felt for u..
i had all along let nature take its course..
"if it happens,it happens"...
but i wanna thank you for ur memories..
for being a chapter of my life..
those sweet memories are still worth to be kept..
and by letting nature take its own course..
i wont force myself to forget you..
i'll let u fade away as time pass by..
for i know cant contact u tho u declare me as ur friend..
a friend by name..
thx for everything..
and like i said "if it happens,it happens"
dont force to hate or to love..
i wunt throw ur stuff cuz its not mine..
and im dumb to receive sth tt dun belong to me..
(a mistake i made twice in my life..)
*heave a sigh of relief*
contented!
chapter closed!
Staring blankly ahead;
Just making my way through the crowd