diet
Tuesday, November 20, 2007 ; 7:31 PM
my fingers are itching to blog...
bt my bladder is fully distended..
if only they had a toilet at this cyber for me to pee...
ouh craps man...(i'll close my sphincter...haha)
finally got all my thinkings sorted out...
finally getting things done up...
finally organising my stuffs properly..(okay at least its abit better!!)
ahak...
if only i had done all these earlier..
but its not too late either...
finally...(humming to fergie's finally)
got my spirits back....
wee..alrite...
i think im too happy at the moment(no sarcasm intended..tho some things just drive me to the wall)
cuz im gaining weight..
my face is chubby now..
damn..
chocolates,chocolates and more chocolates....
i want kinder bueno pls....
(the thought of food causes my brain to be stimulated which in turn causes me to salivate adn eventually stimulating my vagus nerve to produce pepsin and HCL!!)
stress hormones on the rise...
and im starting to binge..
poh getting me munchy donuts for tmr!!
wee...she calls it exam booster...
i need to get rid of those extra kilos ...(tho its still within my range...)
and the spare tyres are forming soon enuff...
and with my grandma at my crib..
it aint helping..
with those extra tidbits...
snacks in between meals...
compulsory set meals..which means compulsory breakfast,lunch and dinner...
but i usually get to skip my breakfast...haha!
i sure gotta get it out...
tho not thru induce vomitting...
else my mama gonna send me to psychiatrist..(not tt i ever induce..i never induce vomitting..)
since she had been threatening to.. when i last lost weight..
and with my lil sis being the spy kid...
she even complains to my mum when i go to the mirror to look at my body...
(extra info...
okay its a routine for me to look at the mirror at my body
which means i look at front profile,side and side profile
and i do it
after shower..
after a heavy meal..
once i get home from school..
whenever im changing...
but tt doesnt mean im having eating disorder..
im appreciating my body and my physical features...)
my my,tmr's theory...
and im ready for it...(like haha..for the first time!!)
bring it on!!
tho still got one or two chap to go...
im goin home to mugg again... (okay im gg to pee...and to get food in my tummy.. lol)
loves!!
shouts:JOSH thx fer the lil comfort..haha..
couldnt believe u were spot on...
she needs the crunches,the push ups,the jog,the diet....
all altered for her....
she binges and now she cringes...
but she's happy now...
and tts all that matter..
Labels: altered image...
Staring blankly ahead;
Just making my way through the crowd