YAY!!Finally changed my blogskin yaw!!
Luv it luv it...and theres a reason fer it...
wakaka...

okay updates updates..
have been having attachment since the week started..
first day is oh-so boring...
the CI made it boring...
I was posted to male cubicle...
DAYMN!!!
but heys...
after that i loved liked it
haha cuz first tym, seeing many male nurses...
lol
kk kidding...

First day..met this SN...he saw me..n say it fast
"okay u take the BP,pulse rate oxygen saturation bla bla bla..
Yr 1 ryt...shud be able to do it..."
daymn...wth was he telling me...
Im yr 2 but dun hav the blue tagg larr..
drats SN..can juz say take para ryt....
took the para budden no clinical chart..daymn!!
thot this ward S***...
but after me and may took the para....
looking like blur C***s at first when trying to operate the high tech dynamat...
haha...
but after that i tot he was a joker and a nice person larr...
i nearly got to do SC injection..but dat doctor go cancel it...drats!!
this SN is non other than SN ismail..
haha...

okay..so wasnt really looking forward fer the following days...
i had a great tym working with chuxiang and memii...
esp with chu xiang...cuz both of us working tgt with the crazy staffs lar
kays..here's the thing...
i keep calling ALL the staff nurse as staff...cuz i didnt noe their names...
so i was like calling Zul as "staff staff"...
and dis zul that look like a 16yr old boy..
he was damn shy...for god noes why...
n daymn i lurve his GREEN BRACES CANN!!
okayy so is like wen he was already warm up with me(daymn!!sounds wrong..)
he was like explaining to me sumthing....annd den to add on...
he was like...err.."next tym dun call me staff can??call me zul"...
n i was like laughing away larr...
darn cute larr he....plus shy...
but he's one daymn smart ass...
he noes his stuff well...
n he can teach...
rmb he was teaching me and chuxiang to do neurovascular chart..
there was this funny thing abt it larr...
doing things with him is daymn funny!!
and yes..he made my day when dat morning i turn hypo...
he came to me from an angle just to say good morning..haha
n den i was abit hyperglycaemic..lol!!
luv it n his green braces...
MELTING!!!

next will be Mak...
NOT MY MOTHER LARR OII!!
ITS MAK,SN MAK...lol!!
this uber crazy frenly n ahem guy...
lol...
he obviously doesnt like nursing...
but he make things relaxed fer me....(dun think diirttyy eyy)
he give me loads of opportunities...
like serving medication and stuff like dat...
a feel of how staff nurse work...
and der was dis day...wen me and chu xiang was unofficially yet officially in charge of rm 24..
haha..did dressing with him was super chin chye...
anyhow do can liaoz..
he got this very loww sexayye voice larr...
it feels really comfy to work with him cuz no pressure lar...
n he look lyk an actor..but dunno wher ive seen him before..
haha..okayy...cool...sexayye...

well this two nurses are worth mentioning abt cuz i owaes laugh when they are around...
cuz they look silly...and....oh cant sayy much...
but now i feel retarded...they must have tot im crazy to laugh and laugh...lol!!but who cares..i like!!
Not forgetting SN Zahrin!!this funny chap..who is good at beauty and stuff like dat...
n may!!i agree...i wan more of ward 76..
but i hope things wunt be that bad fer next two weeks...hehe

HAHA MEMII..doinkz i cant really blogg abt those juicy details larr...haha...
ahem u noe i noe....lol!!!but eh eh no crushes for me...


I LUV CHICKEN LIL!!!lol!!!

Labels: Contradiction

Staring blankly ahead;
Just making my way through the crowd

School ends today..
And i only have one lecture at like 9am ends at 9.50am...
n darn the bus came late larr...
but anyways...its okay...
cuz i managed to reach on time..
so no big deal..
today will unofficialy mark the last day of the semester...
because next week onwards i will be out on attachment..
YAy!!
so that means my blog will hibernate for three damn weeks...
okayy...dun miss me yo!!lol!!
but keep those taggs coming in..hehe..

hoping that the attachment wud be as usual...FUN!!
with those cute aunties...
N I PRAY HARD NOT TO GET MALE cubicle!!!!
I DUN WAN !!
i prefer the Ah ma and makciks...
they are much cuter..tho they like to keep pressing the call bells to irritate us...
but i like...
i miss that granny..the chinese granny who owaes like to say
"missy cute cute,missy cute cute"
i like not cuz she says dat larr...but cuz she'seally cute n understands us...
and makciks...which i SURPRISINGLY have a problem to communicate with...
cuz my malay has deteriorate...and i feel funny using it...
when they speak to me in malay..i ans in english..
dats good fer those that cud undastand...
but those really typical malay...its hard to convert my english to malay...
hahs i really feel handicapped with my own mother tongue...
but i cud communicate in other language instead..funny!
ehk no... i always mix my language like...hokkien and mandarin,english and malay,hokkien and english
wakaka so fun!!
i wann pick up canton this tym round...hee..
tho it aint easy...

okay enuff abt my enthu mood for attachment...
but anw i juz hope its not a ward thats so squeezy and budget..like the c class ward....
with not much of a resources fer us to use..even the pampers budget...so restricted..
have to ask permission to use..
wth!!

okok really enuff..
now..im happy that semester ended cuz no need to worry abt ma attendance larrs!
so cool...
and im gonna miss dance..sheesh..and dance camp meeting...
dance camp gonna be fun!!doinkz!
anw thx peter to push me down flat wen i did a la seconde split...(no sarcasm)
really thx..cuz u open up my inner muscles....
wee...tho afta that my knees went jelly n hurts...
but its okay..


okay i ges thats enuff fer the week...
dun miss me!!
heez..n keep those taggs coming....hooray...!!!

hibernating in process.....

Staring blankly ahead;
Just making my way through the crowd

my screwed week...
i ended it feeling screwed but at least its over

Tuesday
i feel so shitty..
i screwed my dance assessment...

yar...it s***ed...

hated myself fer it...

wat a freakin low standard i felt i did...

haiz...it was really utter dissapointment...

i noe it screwed..

haiz..it was wrong...

so wrong...

i actually was very scared(god noes why)

and had very lil confident...(as usual..)

i dun wanna blame it on anything..

but i wish i cud blame it on my screwed up life...

but nah what peter say is true..

never use excuses for what u did not and cant achieve...

maybe the part on the low self esteem thingy..is really part of my upbringing..

ehk no...my screwed up life...

i thot abt it...

and i cried at night..

dun wish to talk abt my screwed up life...

dun wanna use it as an excuse...

i just want to do the best despite watever has and had happen to me...

but this stupid confident thing is stopping me from achieving my goals...

i made myself disappointed..i made peter and the seniors disappointed...

my standard..i think it dropped..

i think i was better last year...

haiz..

i dun wish to perform any moment too soon...

i wanna reflect on my progress...and improve before i step on that stage ever again..



Izzy thx so much fer ur comfort...

i ges only u wud understand how i feel...

luv u to pieces...

well i'll end tues with the msg that touched me..

from izzy

"....Hey cmon girl. EVerybody makes mistakes before.
You were freakin nervous but at least youve tried. I have some friends who were
as nervous as youbut they dint continue their routine, they just gave up and left.
Well this is the chance for you to build it up. You know that you have not done well for this,
so that shows you gotta prove evrybody wrong, and that youve moved on, realizing your mistakes
and bring up the level and standard. If you keep dwelling on it, you will never improve, trust me. Look on
the bright side rabiah. I KNOW YOU CAN DO THIS!
And hey i still cant forget the look on your face when you dance ok!!
So make me and YOURSELF proud. =) smile for today ...."




okayy..
so on thurs,i screwed up my presentation..
how dumb i was...i didnt attach my presentation to my email before sending it...
but luckily i cud postpone it to this week..(after being nagged by the lecturer)
ANND...i screwed my BCLS...
my 1-man CPR..so i cudnt do 2 man CPR...
but HolY SHIT..im gonna make it up this week..
i'll redeem myself......
with that i end my entry...
hope you guys had fun reading...lol!!
smiling as usual...

Im okay..serious... =)

Labels: I'm really okay doinkz

Staring blankly ahead;
Just making my way through the crowd

okayys..finally gotten my sickening shoes..
geez...but aint happy with it..
i cudnt find any freakin nice shoes larr...
where on earth has all the nice shoes gone too??
but heck temporary shoe it shall be..
there's green on it so can temporarily make me happy...
okayys...
soon to my dance assesments..so not ready fer it lar...

but will make the best out of it...
still doin research abt my dance...
geez..thank god tmr finish at 2pm...
heck hellness...
im gonna have sucha busy week....
BCLS,individual presentation,Mon presentation plus dance assessment...

geez..still thinkin whether to use hurt or that step up song..im a shine??
any suggestions??
anw thanx weilin fer all the help...
luv u loads larr...
okayy ive got no other things to sayy....
so ya da ya da...

im struggling to keep on dancing...
but the only wayy i cud do that is to manage my stuffs well...
and manage my health well...cuz i keep getting fainting spells...
doinkz!


if only i did not discover abt ur bad side....
but then again i will discover it sooner or later...

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Just making my way through the crowd

finally ended psychotic psycho project...
geez...but tmr's the presentation...
sorry but this is b****ing time...
i can't stand having meetings with her larr...u noe how i endured her super talkativeness...
i mean not that i dun like her(but dat's a fact)
but putting personal judgement asides...
i really cant stand her talking out of point...
i mean like when everyone's talking abt this topic and she
talk abt other topic..
it is so the irritating...
and goodness...wat ??"neat freak""
the things she do is so the tak senonoh ..(meaning...err..anyhow do...)
and i have to do re-do it...
one is cause i cant stand the tak senonoh-ness
and next is cause it will reflect on our group...
gee...n pls take note i already told her im gonna do it...
and ta-daa...she does it anyhow...
grr...
isn't it a waste of time and energy??
grr...
n yes i have to do re-do....not everything...but whatever she's done..
which is actually all the things lar...cuz she meddles with wateva we've done and come up with
n she destroyed my manmade plunger by colouring the thingy with MARKER..
like WTH...
i cant take it anymore...
i can't stand tak senonoh-ness when it comes to art...
grr....n ur not in the WRONG course...cuz ur not fitted for ART....grr....
argh..im goin breakdown soon if she starts yakking away...
i need SOS!!!(well i can go on and on)

kayys enuff bout watever b****ing...
niwaes......so happy!!!
yesterday got a ride from zul!!after dance dat is...
haha..so funny riding in his car...
geez..n he's just turning 19!!so big larr his car..but only two of us inside...
i feel so grown up..
n he doesnt noe the directions...so like ya da ya da..i knew..so yeaps...
showed him the way with loads of u-turning..hehe
...hope he din get lost on the way home...
but yar i feel so c**k lar...cuz i keep asking him how come he is not scared lol!!
cuz he like just pass his license 2weeks ago...
n im fortunate to be sent home by him..haha...
so cool....

niwaes peter's back tmr...
all of us getting ready for his F***ing session...
lol!!even zee is ready cuz she "dreamt" thet peter came and F us up...
lol!well i tink i cant take dance anymore...
maybe for this period....a lil bit stressed up..but my face as usual...
relak one corner face....geez..i need a breather...
okayys..

have been seeing those aeroplanes and stuffs doing their rehearsals...
geez...
have like been wanting to go NDP ever since the last time i went for it....
because of the colourful costumes,the sing-alongs...well im rather patriotic u noe...hee..
but den cudnt get any tix...none of my family got it...so sadded...
so ya da....anyone got tix????pass to me pls..i'd luv u amillions if i got 1 or two...hee..

okayy happy happy...
n me stressy stressy when it comes for project...geez...

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Just making my way through the crowd

okay okay i got lots ta update..but dunno wad...
had lack of sleep the day before...
MSS carnival was fun...
no..i had fun lol!!
but its kinda messy though with lotsa activities goin on at the same time...
managed to see fadly dance grp..
they were great but cud be better..
n yes i saw loads of my batch girls and guys!!
saw susanti!!
James Wilson Limmade...
haha lurve calling him dat..
he is ever so the same..just that no longer have that bad guy look dat he used to have...
saw LJYJ getting muscular...must be cause of the NS..and say whhatt??
he got his ears pierced...my buddy!!
my pinching cum jokes buddy..
miss him to bits!!
and not forgetting bestie...
saw almost all of them larr basically..
had lotsa fun...
i miss my skul...doinkz!!
will be back there again i hope...
..

okay im tired...(it always happen when ive lots to blogg abt)...
niwaes my area had gang fight this morning with bld all over the freakin place...
geez....
so freaky...
hope it come out in the news hehe....


u...
it was over between us...
dun think abt it...
dun place any hope..
cuz u noe wad u've done..
u've wasted my time...
dun put on a pretence..it disgust me...
thx!

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Just making my way through the crowd

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school.
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