sick
Thursday, February 01, 2007 ; 5:12 PM
yayness manage to slip and blog again..wee..
finally manage to change blog song..
lurve the chorus but i dun tink it mean anything to me..
hehe..im happily swinging single..
enjoying singlehood till the ryt tym comes
mayb this song fer khair and nas yar..
fret not rabiah still here..
fine!im actually sick u noe..
n khair was laughing at me ystd like im his clown like dat..
takpe lah skali skala..
stupid lar ystd...
pt kinda absconded..sort of..
den my brain jam like shit lor..
cant even do para properly..
den one by one pt goin out..lol..
like playing catching.,.
but really i was jammed..n khair sae dat im juz using the excuse..
like wth..but nvm.. i noe his plight at dat moment so like yar..
n i cant believe i did stupid stuffs like flagging fer bus 135 when dat bustop does not have 135..
damn stupid lor....
but anyway ther was dis cute mat at the bustop..
fer the ferst tym im liking a mat fer his looks..
besides khair(mat in denial..)
hehe..anyway wat was i supposed to blog arh??...
(regaining my mind)
okie..here's wat im supposed to be blogging..
why am i hating?
why am i not luving?
dun tell me it came back again..i dun wan dat..
i juz wan as it is..
somethings bothering me..
i tot it was meant as it was ..clear and not needing any explanation..
but y u sae a different ting..
ges im juz tinkin too much..
but i noe sumthings changing..
bt i'l juz be there fer u anytym anyway..
hopefully u realise it..
(hehe the tingy above is wat i feel..no questions asked pls..
cuz i dun wish to hurt anybody..thx!)
and i was quiet today after visiting dis patient..
once i entered the high dependency ward..
i felt solemn and tense atmosphere surrounds me..
patient being intubated with lotsa drips and all..
and only morphine is their friend.
i dunno y..but as i listen to dis granny patient...
i felt kinda sad..i juz wanted cry down der..
but seeing the pt smiling away din make me cry..i juz held ma tears..
its unprofessional to cry..but
the feeling is so heavy at the heart..
but y?im not even close to the pt..neva even tok to her..
sometyms juz wrong..
i tink im losing sumone..
haiz..hate gut feelings..
anyway..i'm rather quiet dis days.,..
sumtings bothering..but i try not to show...again...
the feelings coming back..
juz need lotsa rest..and a break...
peace out...
Staring blankly ahead;
Just making my way through the crowd