last day of posting
Friday, January 19, 2007 ; 12:36 PM
okie..here i am..
posting my last entry before i get busy up fer the weekends
and following attachie..
btw im in ward 47 ppl!!SGH..hehe..
kk..
err..kr n sheil din come today cuz sheil is sick
n kr put his alarm at 11am..
juz cuz i told him skul starts at 11am..(blurrr boi!)
gosh kr..
its goin be at the end of the sem already larr..
n kr's blog so irritating..
but it takes energy to view his blog cuz(wait wats wit me and energy???haha)
goin in to view his blog is sucha hussle..
n den cannot even view the taggie board
n den read his blog sumtyms take ur energy to think further wat he's trying to sae..
haha..mystery person..but i like~
not much of a mystery to me..but at tyms do..
cuz i still have the slowness in me..hehe cant help it..
n sheil beta tc kae..
next week is already attachie..
take lotsa vit c..
tu lar baca buku banyak sangat kan..hehe
(translation:read books too much right..hehe)
Warning:this part of the entry doesnt sound like me but no fret its really me..hehe
oh wells HIPHOPHUNT is coming soon..
cant wait fer it..
yes..we,girls needa have dat fighting spirit..
dat competing spirit..
the spirit to win..
n dat lil tinge of slutty nasty bitch us to dance it out..
yea..im sure we can do it..
yea..touch every part of the body..
like the prac i had wit wei lin and pauline
the lil scenarios during practice with pauline and wei lin
while the rest of the dancers were doing their dance choreo fer open house
scenario 1..
"come lets walk like a model..sexy yea.."
3 of us walk..pretending to be like tyra banks..
haha but not really dat sexy yet..urgh..
its hard fer me..
but we tried walking tho..
neva satisfied
scenario 2..
"must be comfy touching ur body.."
pauline:we touch the hair ferst.."
me:okie okie..do sexy and differnt pose..
cat walk a lil n touched our hair...(not satisfied)
paulin:k touch the neck now
touch and touch..
practically touching and embracing our own body..
out of a sudden
wei lin:k touch ur BREAST
rabiah:wadtha hell??!!YIKES!!
n yea the practically touch n left their hands there lar..
lik wow!
haha n guess wat i did??
cross my hands on my chest..n chest mind u..
not breast..lalala..
im still a lil bit shy on dat area..
but den again
think rabiah..i have the assets..
urgh no choice(its neva been a choice) but hafta do it..
okie wadtha hell..we shall all be slutty,seducive,bitchy and SEXY..yea..
lurve u gals larr!!cant wait to dance on sunday..wee..
so this weekend kinda caught up..
Sat:danceworks briefing
Sun:dance prac with the girls..lurve it..
k back to the normal me..
hmm..
i thot u said u wud let it be..
i thot it was over ..
i thot u were okie on the day the conference ended??
but y r u saying that its hurting ..its not fair for him..
i kinda sorta hate u..fer..
saying things u din mean..
hating u fer treating "him and her" dat way..
i juz dun undastand..
ur saying things but doin another..
ur contradicting..
u noe i have dat respect fer u wen u show me ur talent.
but wen it cum to personal..
i dun like it..
ur raking it up all over again..like wadtha hell??
oh wells..this is Power of lurve i ges anyway..in ur understanding..
hmm..
another part of me..<br>
..
i dunno y but i rake up the past..
i noe ive no ryt...bt i still did it..
i noe..it hurts n im sorry..
im hurt too..
i dunno y but i juz wanna stop asking abt the past..
i dun wanna noe..
cuz i noe it hurts alot..
but i wanna noe..why there was sucha secrecy..
but i dun wanna ask dats fer sure..
let it be a mystery i neva solve..
i juz wann it to ba the way it is now..
i wan u..but on the other side i dun wanna lose wat i have now..
so i ges juz let it be..
if u found someone new pls juz lemme go..
dun worry abt me..
i'l be fine..
Yet another part..of me..
i dunno y but i feel dat im losing u..
y din u tell me somethin was wrong wit u..
u were with me since the day dat i was born..'
seeing how the family grew..
sharing the close-knit rship we once had n now has strain..
rmb dat day..u said y are all our luv ones leaving us soon..
wat i can do now is add ur name in the list of ppl im praying for god to look after
i juz pray fer ur safety n ur health..
take care n luv u..
thoughts:y am i losing my luv ones??
to all my frens..happy attachie..
Staring blankly ahead;
Just making my way through the crowd