a day i'd live to remember..
Saturday, December 16, 2006 ; 12:44 PM
yesterday was the day i wud live to remember..
15th December 2006..
a day when i hated her fer making Nas darlin cry..TWICE!
a day when darlins all walk from YCK mrt to Khatib park out of boredom..
and most importantly a day where i noe im not living in the dark
no not anymore..
the light is there..
n i noe the light will neva leave me..
at least there's hope that the light will glow in me at the very darkest moment..
i cant believe i actually managed to have dis day...
the feeling of acceptance..n really from a friend who vow not to leave..
that feeling of being secured..
the feeling of not to fear cuz the lights are at the end of the tunnel...
the feeling that nobody wud noe im going thru..
the vows i'll keep of not leaving u my fren..
i lurve lurve lurve u soo much..
yesterdae was a dae..
my heart managed to open..
means now im ready fer lurve..
but to think abt it again..
im not worthy of lurve..
who can i find..
who understands?
who wud live with a past of me?
who wud treasure me more..and make me feel secure?
its juz hard..
as hard as i wish it wudnt be..
wishin life was simpler..
n guys were better..
n my wish is simple..
i juz wan a guy who juz understands..
not going fer looks nor materials..
someone who understands me,my past and my present,
my state of life dat not many girls wud live to experience..
an innocent life dat was once destroyed..
well now i wunt find lurve
let lurve find me
so dat i noe i will fall on it..
n let it be called im falling in lurve..
okie dat was juz my thots dat wished to convey..
yea..
i hate it when ppl make my darlins cry..
n my darlins consist of khair,nas,sheil and amirah..
n i rather cry for them den seeing them cry..
u really have no right to make her cry..oh well i shudnt get pissed wit u..
but if its gonna happen again i'm so gonna screw u up..(and down)
so please dun hurt my darlins..
and i really mean please...
cool im now here at cyber..
dressed up..
supposed ta go mit khair and sheil at tamp..lalala
haha..
n i haven wrap bestie nazmi prezie..
lalala..haha..
k its not my prezie to him oso..
its my younger sis..
hehe so fun meetin him...okie cool its like 1pm now..n i so gotta get home wrap dat prezie
skip breakfast n meet khair n sheil..
else i get khair's lecture AGAIN!
..oh..sorry but i the following are public display of lurve..
hehe
i lurve muhammad khair firdaus..
sososososo very very much!!MuAckZ!!!
lalala
and yea not to forget..my other darlins..
darlin nas sheil and mira..
dun be jealous..(kia heard the hearts breaking?haha...kiddin yo!)
hehehe...
ciaoz...
and happy holidays!
Staring blankly ahead;
Just making my way through the crowd