haiz here i am again posting another entry..before i log off to meet julian at the dance studio...
rushing this piece but..well i make it a lil meaningful


yea...a few days back..was talking wit turkey about wat lurve is..
so a few days later it got me confused...
yea..again..
He told me wat lurve was according to him..
and wat ma meaning was..
so now im stuck again..
is there really true love??
not that i eva experience it before..
haiz so dis ma explanation of lurve after a long tym thinkin

Theres no such thing as true lurve ryt??
lurve is juz somethin btwn two ppl..lyk turk saes..
its natural feeling cuz we are born with feelings..
so naturally we will be attracted to ppl..
so yea..
but y did god created lurve??
I now agree with turk wen he saes lurve=stupidity
in other words it does make u a fool..
it make u carve ur hands,hurt urself,sacrifice ur utmost passion to juz do sumting fer the lurve one..
well at least..i felt like a fool..reminiscin those pasts i had wit my past..
coming home late night,having to juggle heartpains and family matters aside..
its all hard work...
and all those lies that i told my parents wen i wanted to get out wit ma ex..
i felt sinful..
sin to my parents..
n yea..did i rmb turk saying lurve was a sin..
yea..it was a sin..
make u sin to urself n ur family..n frens..
i felt bad..mayb this tym round if i eva gonna have a guy..i will bring the guy to ma parents.
no more sins this tym...
Im juz gonna learn from my mistakes..and not repeat them..hopefully..


well..another mistake that i hope i will not do is..
not to fall in lurve wit a best fren u once have..
keep it platonic..
cuz u if u eva fall in lurve wit him/her..
and one day you gonna breakup..
trust me..its hard to maintain that frenship u once had..
ive tried it once wit my ex..who is a besfren of my yet another passion..-ART..
yea...we became frens after the breakup..but onli fer awhile...den..voila..nothin much..

Next i was with my considered a gd fren since sec 1..always teasing here n there n voila we were together..ended up at recent breakup..
it made me a fool..
despite all the shitt dat i got i still made the effort to be frens with him..
but voila..it backfired..n yea i did not stop at one try..i tried again and again..
till today i realised..
yea..maybe im juz too stupid..
i will juz stop here..i hope..
i hope sumone will help me from being a fool again..
..
n 1 ting i really dunno fer sure..
y do girls/guys cry after they do such stuffs??
is it because they r sympathizing with themselves fer bein stupid??
or do they juz feel hurt and rejected??i feel dumb ryt now...sumone show me the way..


well last words..i will neva noe wat lurve is after all..
lurve is juz like a fire..
its either ur friend or foe..


Now dat i noe ur thinkin..well i rather stop being a fool and stop contactin u..
throwin away all ur promises u made wit me ..
taking all my energy and shiftin it to my passion..
-im bruised again...

kk..changin attitude fer ma dance..lalalaz...

Staring blankly ahead;
Just making my way through the crowd

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